In 1992, I moved to Tallahassee, Florida, excited to start my first professional job as a safety and health specialist for the State of Florida. I had a modest apartment, a few kitchen utensils, and a TV—but no furniture. Still, I was proud. I was stepping into adulthood, and I was ready to make my first big purchase.
Thanks to the common practice back then of credit card companies setting up on college campuses, I had a Sears credit card with a $5,000 limit. I hadn’t used it, and honestly, I hadn’t planned to. But with my new job and bare apartment, I decided it was time to buy a sectional couch. Not just any couch—the couch. I had a clear vision: something comfortable, multifunctional, and big enough to turn my apartment into a real home.
The Trip to the Department Store
It was a typical off-day, so I dressed the way I always did during my college years: baggy T-shirt, sweatpants, sneakers, and a hat turned backwards. I walked into a Department Store ready to browse and, hopefully, buy.
When I saw the couch—a massive blue sectional with recliners, cup holders, a pull-out bed, and rearrangeable pieces—I knew it was the one. I tested every function. Sat on it. Reclined in it. Laid across it. Examined it from every angle.
I was clearly interested.
And I was clearly invisible.
Fifteen Minutes of Silence
Not one sales associate came to help me.
I watched as at least three or four white employees passed by. None of them acknowledged me—not even with a nod or a “someone will be right with you.” They weren’t in a rush. They were still in the same general area, but they never approached.
Ten minutes went by.
Then fifteen.
It wasn’t until a young woman—who, if I recall correctly, wasn’t even working in the furniture section—walked by and asked, “Have you been helped?” that I finally had any interaction. I told her, flatly, “No. I’ve been here a while.” She took it upon herself to assist me, even though this wasn’t her area. And to her credit, she was excellent—professional, warm, and helpful.
Once she realized I was serious about buying the couch, she dove into full service mode: walking me through the features, recommending add-ons, and finalizing the sale. When I told her I worked for the State of Florida, her demeanor brightened even more.
So What Was It?
Here’s where things got complicated—and where the mental weight of being Black in America kicked in.
Why did no one help me?
Was it how I was dressed? Was it because I looked young? Was it because I was Black?
The reality is: I’ll never know.
But that’s part of the problem, isn’t it?
For many of us in the Black Generation X community, this type of moment wasn’t rare. We were raised to believe we could go anywhere, buy anything, be anything. But when experiences like this happened—subtle, easy-to-dismiss incidents—they left us with lingering doubt. Was that what I think it was? Or am I just being sensitive?
The truth? I had every reason to be helped. I was ready to buy. I had the money. I had the credit. I had the intent. And I was right there, visibly engaged with the product.
And still—I was ignored.
The Burden of Decoding Disrespect
As I reflected on this experience over the years, especially after becoming an attorney handling discrimination cases, I learned that bias is rarely as blatant as we expect. Often, it’s subtle. It’s circumstantial. It’s about how people in similar positions are treated differently.
The sad reality is that I’ll never know whether it was racism, classism, ageism—or some combination of all three—that led to me being overlooked that day. But I know I was treated differently. I felt it. I saw it. I lived it.
And for people who’ve never had to question whether they “look like” they belong, it’s easy to brush this off as paranoia. But if you’ve ever been treated like you were invisible while standing right in front of someone—you know the sting.
The Larger Truth for Gen X
Our generation grew up in the aftermath of Jim Crow, taught to believe in progress, but forced to navigate spaces where old attitudes quietly lingered. That day at Sears wasn’t about a couch. It was about recognition. About value. About the unspoken judgment that I didn’t belong.
Even now, decades later, the experience sits with me—not because of what was said, but because of what wasn’t. And I know I’m not alone.
Let’s Talk About It
Have you ever felt unseen in a space where you should have been welcomed? Where you had to question if you were imagining it—or if something deeper was at play?
Share your story in the comments.
Let’s stop questioning our experiences—and start validating each other’s truth.
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